I've got a lot of fears, maybe more than the average person. I'm afraid of creepy spiders and mice that scurry. I fear all those crazy drivers out there who seem to get more fuel from road rage than gasoline. I get nauseous over the thought that when I open my mouth something really dumb will spill out. And blogging. Yupp, I am afraid of blogging.
I ventured out several months ago and began blogging for other people. It's great to write for a large company in Canada or a mom and pop shop in Southern California. They have no idea who I am and they really don't care. They just want words put together in a sentence that makes sense and will promote their business or product.
Blogging on my own is different. I mean, in a sense, I am promoting myself. Which feels both silly and wrong. I sincerely hope that in the long run anyone who visits this blog will know that I want to promote Jesus. Anything good that could possibly come from me came first from him.
We can get a few things out on the table right away. I am just a wife, mom, and grandma. I've made so many mistakes. There are times when I am self-conscious and lack confidence. Even with my best efforts I lose my balance and sometimes chase a rabbit off the path God has for me. Sometimes what people think of me or say about me matters more than it should. I guess what I am trying to say is we are a lot alike, you and me. What might make me different is the bull's eye, or target, that has coexisted with me since I said "I do."
Which brings me full circle to my fears. While tiny no-see-ums or jumpy, crawly things give me the heebie jeebies, I can honestly say that when God gave me Joshua 1:9 as my life's verse more than 30 years ago He also gave me enough of His grace and His strength to get through the tuff stuff that makes up life on planet earth. I've learned He can be trusted to keep His promises.
So if you have the stomach for it and can overlook the faults and failures of a confused striver--that's me--then let's try this blogging thing. Maybe, just maybe, there's really nothing to fear.
